i can't believe i still have this thing. i thought i deleted it. i wonder why i'm keeping it alive. maybe just to stretch out the archives. haha jk. APs are coming up. maybe i'm saving this blog for the important stuff. but that's not true because there are some trivial things in here and i've missed writing about a lot of important stuff. i don't really see a point to it, but on the other hand i don't want it destroyed, either.
[edit] people have really been getting on my nerves lately. and sitting in class, going to track, doing my daily things, i feel so disconnected to everyone, as if i've drifted away overnight, or so slowly i haven't noticed until now. i feel extremely introverted and depressed. and no one seems to notice. but i guess i'm not acting supremely differently. plus everyone has their own problems to worry about. Especially right now, we all have one thing glaring in our minds... AP TEST IN TWO DAYS! and other AP tests soon. there are only 28 days of school left. it seems ridiculously soon. when i look back i can only draw forth a couple of memories. they include night rehearsal at gahr, when it was cold but we were hot, and were doing the ending of the show over and over again; that one football game i will never forget, breaking 15 in lj, fresno, field championshops, and i don't know what else. wow, we're almost seniors. we're almost done. as hard as we think it is this year, it will just get harder. everything is happening so fast. AGHHH!! and i can't believe i spent almost half a year thinking about a boy.