i smell smoke. *sniff* i loved it today. woke up really late :D and watched gackt to my heart's content. except... i missed yu-gi-oh!!! NOOOOOOOO!! my alarm clock's snooze button apparently doesn't work. -__-;;; i completed nearly all of the things from the list of what i had to do this summer, except for the running ones and the cleaning up stuff ones. also the one where i wanted to make something. does it count if i made a promise and semi-kept it? >__K am listening to gackt very happily right now. i couldn't do it before because it was like torture thinking too much about it. i completely wasted my day though. WE HAVE PRACTICE THE DAY BEFORE SCHOOL STARTS. i think that's full of crazy. ><;;; i think i should go clean or something. make my day more productive. i love asrun dream!!! and dears!!! i miss kamui though. FLORENCIA!!!!! >F *strangles* give me x!!!!!!! oh i read something a few minutes ago about the ____ ____. *hurt*

i love gackt!!!!! *cries* my very long post got erased because my retarded sister is such a butthead she signed out of MINE and signed in on hers. what an idiot! so i had no idea and therefor when i tried to post it it obviously did not work. >_<::: haha i like that new face. i can't stay in a bad mood for long because i'm just... GACKT!!!!! you have no idea how i have missed him so. i have been through many phases/stages of delirium and insanity. but that is alright with me because now i have my gackt. *squeeze* got shitloads of sexy gackt pictures from victoria, including more of gackt with his adorable kitten!! ^__^ also read a smutty gacktxblender fanfic. i loved it!!! O^__^O

I am a feminine Gackt fan!
What kind of Gackt fan are you?

quiz by mcvarmazi
Your tastes in Gackt aren't made distince by your choice in his music, but rather in his look. You believe Gackt is really sexy when he's effeminate, and can't get enough of all the yaoi possibilities. You probably loved the fanservice in Vanilla live and drooled all over your photobook with the naked You feeding the naked Gackt grapes.

*nod nod*

I'M SOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

I LOVE YOU GACKT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU SOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *shrill fangirl scream*

i am sorry, i wrote fing instead of find. from "find out". alright, that is enough from me.

“Myrtle!” Harry said in outrage, “I’m—I’m not wearing anything!”
remember that? such a long time ago. i think i am dead. i daresay i feel dead. i have never in my life said "daresay" before, and it looks odd. and ugly. should i delete it? oh well. i think i snapped. too much strain. cg, band camp, stupid mr trost + no gackt + no x. it killed me. will i be able to ressurect tonight? maybe. we shall see. 10:00 pm. performance is tonight. must be out in the field by 6:45. i wish not to go. i want to curl up into a ball and sleep whilst dreaming of gackt and kamui. it is my brother's birthday today. but i have no money for him. what shall i do? steal some? hah that seems like a good idea but it isn't really, is it? probably not. today was all bad. there were no good parts to it whatsoever. no rifle-ing, even. just work work. drill drill. thinking of kamui wistfully. longing for gackt. it has been a hard day to live. and now with that locker thing, michelle got separated from us. she really is moody michelle. because while she may appear to be happy, she is not. and at times of unhappiness, she will show it. i hope no one reads this because i don't want anyone to. but i feel safe in that as i am sure no one reads this. that i am glad for. susan is extremely tiresome. annoying to the ends of the earth. she never shuts up. always talking. talking. annoying. asking questions. talking to you. waking you up. that annoying voice. hanging around us. following close by. dragging. i want sleep. three days... feels like an eterenity. i know what zutiny is now. destiny. zutiny sounds much better then destiny, that is my thought. because destiny sounds extremely fluffy and starry. too fake. zutiny is better. but still have to fing out who that person is. this is the end of my growing insanity. it has reached the limit this afternoon. and i have died!!!! one person is at fault. will i ressurect? maybe... just sleep shall be fine. please, no one read this. *dead*

i wasn't about to blog today but i have nothing else to do right now because i am deprived of gackt for three days. after today, only... one.. MORE!!!!!! DAYYYYY!!!!! and one more day of band camp!!!!!!!! ackkkkkkkk dunno if i can last that long... but i still have one small shred of self-control left, before breaking down completely. there's too... much.... STRAIN!!!! i couldn't get x today, either, because florencia wasn't home. TTTT___TTTT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! *dies* ew i have three bug bites on my neck. nasty. so it turns out the football people DO live at school. i mean, they sleep there and all. man i was going to make everyone take my tests today, but they weren't online. so.



Which Gackt are you most like?

quiz by mcvarmazi



Which Gackt are you most like?

quiz by mcvarmazi

oh shit!!! i wasn't supposed to look at gackt!!!! *bites lip* oh well it was only for a second. that doesn' count. *sigh* i was going nuts earlier because i had nothing to do and i was missing gackt/x too much. i needed to put those gackt pictures there because i like them to be there always on the page that is showing. :D except i cannot view them just yet... so i can't check my blog until.. what, tomorrow? or tomorrow tomorrow? damn! ><;;; it is very hard, this. i will steadily and increasingly grow in my insanity and then snap and drive by his house and SHOOT HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!! you know who you are!!!! *threatens* i... need... X!!!!!! *frantic* damn it i need my guys!!!! *cries* if not gackt, x. not both!!! thats too much to handle. i really think i am going insane over this. all one person's fault. >F DIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!! gackt is tall. i compared his height with our 6 feet+ poles because i wanted to and i held it next to me, and he is much taller that me. O^__^O gackt!!!!!! oh yeah, what is zuuuuuuuutiny!?!?!? i want to know!!!! i went to that site zutiny.org, but i still don't get it!!! o__O;;; *confused* and i still don't know who that person is. i have bad memory, i tell you!!! or none at all? *confuses self* er... nm that. i finished my book, (finally!) taken at the flood today. that took forever. ok i think i need to sleep now, my eyes are burning, as are my lips. i think they are sunburnt, because thats the only explaination i could think of why it hurt so much. >__<;;; ah my beautiful gackt and my beautiful kamui... i want you both!!!! take me now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

no x today... TT__TT... ran out of episodes. but denise is going to try to get some more tomorrow... i... CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!! *dies* cg practice was hell today. it was so freakin cold and my stomach hurt like crazy. also i got very pissed at susan and snapped, then yelled at her. shes such an idiot. >F i just couldn't stand it anymore. cindy and thu noticed very much because they were next to me. i was screaming at her. and that damn didi. HATE HER!!!!! always changing our work and such. making it different and such and such. full of crazy, that bitch. (victoria forced that phrase on me o__@;;;) and that stupid band director and his stupid assistant. >F he keeps sucking up to us, its disgusting. >F makes me mad. instead of just apologizing like he was supposed to. >( very annoying. we had a semi-pot luck today. only grace and thu brought food for all of us. but other people shared also, including me. i was afraid to stand under the tree again so i just sat in my spot. OMG i hate drill like crazy. the stupid band keeps stepping on our flags. actually, he only sucks up to rifle/sabre people. he seems to hate the flag line as much as ever. made us carry the damn flags all the way whilst we were doing our dance before we got to our spot. what the hell is that?!?!? had to hold it in one hand and look absolutely retarded. i heard at least three people (band) tripped over various flag people's flags. HA!!!!! >( serves you right, you bitches!!!! well not all of them. BUT MOST OF THEM!!!!! i hate them all!!! *screams* did many pushups because it was our first time doing the work with the drill. but by the time it was practice, we were MUCH better and mark was happy. *proud* haha. until didi got there. -__-o i miss gackt so very much. my sexy gackt. oh yeah i cheated again because i forgot irene had gackt icon and talked to her, thus looking (and staring) at gackt unconsiously. eheh. well i'm not starting over, thats very good. ew cindy likes fuma. SICK!!!!! i hate that bastard!!!!!! he keeps hurting and KILLING people!!!!!! STOP IT!!!! *sobs* poor poor kamui!!!!!! *grabs kamui and strokes his hair* i love you!!!!!!!!! *clutches his arm* leave him alone, FUMA!!!!!!!!!! x.... X..... X!!!!!!! tomorrow... i better get new episodes tomorrow. *threatens* oh yeah we went to cheryl's house today to eat all her food and see/look at/admire her new bunny. its a HUGE bunny. o__O;;;; very large. but very cute!!! ^__^ ok methinks its time for sleep now. sleep... i had a dream last night that i was staying up very late, and as soon as i finally got into bed, my mom in real life was saying, wake up! i was very confused. and was like, NOOOOOOO!!! i didn't get any sleep! until i realized it was a dream. *sigh* more band camp, more drill tomorrow. how can i face the day without gackt or kamui!?!?!?!? i can't do it, i tell you!!!! my stomach still hurts. if i didn't say this before, my words are: whilst and gackt. plus nastily, but not really....

OMG!!!!! i want to watch more x!!!!! MOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!! i just finished episode 20. *__* more more more!!!!! now i know why everyone likes sorata and everyone hates.... FUMA. grrrrr. i saw episode 17. O^__^O ahhh kamui!!!! also also! i saw gackt today!!!! whoooooooo!!!!! victoria brought the magazine because i carried her flag and rifle back to the band room again. woke up with puffy eyes today. very puffy. O__O;;; ehee. shouldn't watch x so late, huh? >__+;;; i can't help it! i'm so addicted! i watched EIGHT episodes today. today... was such a mixed day. i first thought it was very bad. but then good things happened. and since i'm writing this after i took a long nap, my views changed. ok i have to make this quick and go to sleep. OMG a bird POOPED on me today. >F!!!!!!!! that is sooooo disgusting!!!!!! ugh. i had to wash my hair three times immediatly after i got home. ><;;; I HATE BIRDS. YOU SICKOS!!!!!!!!!!!! *cries* biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiird ppppppppppppppooooooooooooooooooooooop!!!! that's.... so... nasty!!!! damn i tried to send people pictures of beautiful kamui, but they're behind a different firewall or whatever. -__-;;;;;; well at least i got through to one person. i hate drill. LIKE CRAZY. i just don't feel like "giving another 20%" or "can you do another 30%? i think you can!" grrrrrrrr. its very annoying. oh yeah, we also went to see if our schedules were changed for us yet, but WTH they didn't have a line for my name!!!!! i was very.. shocked! shokuda <-- ^__^ anyways.. i was stuck in the line with melody's MEAN counselor and she didn't want to check for us. MAN! >( ah well. also we didn't get to go to lunch because of stupid band! plus i took victoria's rifle and waited to tell her except she didn't come for a long time, so i had to put it back. >F but i was lying on her towel becuase its nice and fluffy. ^__^ then we played red rover though! it was fun. except we lost. man! the other side keeps taking natalie!!!! not fair!!! well.. oh yeah! i have very good news!!!!! well we were waiting ...for something, and i tossed a quad!!! wow!!!! cool, huh???! i was very shocked! o^__^o wow a quad. my first quad! but i kept playing with it and hurt my wrist. and today my thumb hurts exceptionally. OMG i want to watch x right now. X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X..... *sigh* i want to just stare at sexy kamui forever. oops and i have to start the gackt thing tomorrow, becuase i er, *scratches head* looked at the magazine today. heh heh. i forgot! it was an honest mistake. haha. hmmm what else is today? well tomorrow i get to see cheryl's bunny/HUGE rabbit. yay. awww x is sad. poor everyone. and kamui!!!! that stupid fuma. STOP PICKING ON GIRLS YOU SICKO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *cries* will i survive the gackt fast? maybe if i can quicky get more episodes of x. ALL!!!!!!! muahahahhahaha!!!

oh and sorry because i couldn't start the gackt thing today. just couldn't. but you weren't online so, i'll just start it today, i mean tuesday, but its past 12, see? damn you fuma!!!! >F *shakes fist* I LOVE YOU KAMUI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *cries*

just finished episode 12.... OMG!!!!!!!!! KAMUI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! KAMUI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *sob* poor kamui!!!!! how could you, you bastard!!!!!!!! *slaps fuma* i hate you!!!!!!! *cries* kamui! kamui!!!!!!! my poor darling!!!! *pets kamui* daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamn yooooooooooooooou fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuma!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >*(

KAMUI!!!!!!!!!!!!!! KAMUI, you sexy bitch!!!!!! i'm going to see episode 17!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm inching towards it.... on episode 7 now... ;D ;D ;D

had a tiff with mums. grrrr. she can really be an idiot

oooooooo i watched 5 episodes of x!!!! its so good!!!!! and that kamui is a such a sexy bitch! i want more x!!!!!!!!!! *sob* *pounds on denise's door* give me moooooooooooooooooore!!!!!!!! ugh my mom is watching me type right now. go away!!!!!! GO AWAY!!! GO AWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!! god its so annoying. >__<;;; man theres only 10 more days until school. NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! well, 9 because its "officially" monday. i don't want to wake up early and go to band camp!!!!! *cries* x x x x x... its all i can think about. oh shit i forgot to load up on gackt in preparation for my gackt fast. NOOOO!!! i don't think i'll survive it. *crawls under bed and dies* please no. *sob* i'm dl something from angela thats taking forever. ><;;; ok its getting late because i have to go to sleep early. will write some more... some other time.

OMG i wrote all this shit and it disappears. forget it then. GOD!!!!!