i need to add:
-finishing drinks
-cleaning contacts
-taking care of contacts
-taking off contacts (the places they've been.. o_O;;)
-flossing
-brushing my teeth (hmm sounds like i'm a 2-year old)
-thinking ahead
-strategy
-anaylizing
-basketball
-aiming
-shooting
-clicking
-control
-thinking straight

anyway please don't think i'm being "depressed" or "pessimestic" or anything.. because i'm not.. its ok.. i'm being objective and i find this rather interesting... how about this: things i'm good at:
-

hmm.. can't seem to think of anything. i'll get back to you on that.. no i think i'd rather not.. you might not want to do this.. but if you really think.. you'll find that nothing is perfect. i know because i used to try to be perfect.. and i couldn't so i tried to think of something that was perfect to soothe me.. but i thought and i thought and i couldn't think of anything... anything at all.. so maybe if you're smarter than me, you can think of something. its hard though. you have to really think. p.s. i would still love draco and malfoy if he was a murderer.. but... i don't know.. i'll probably die...

ok lets see. i am sad now. my report card. SOB. ok i made a list of things i suck at... here it is:
-computers
-track
-running, hurdles, etc
-writing
-singing
-anything creative or art
-other sports
-thinking
-chess (SOB)
-golf (what about when i'm an old man?!?!? oh i'm already one..)
-school
-spanish
-english
-ap euro
-essays
-studying
-chemistry
-biology
-math
-staying awake
-not procrastinating
-making decisions
-taking tests
-colorguard
-rifle
-flag
-dance
-cards
-speaking coherently
-spelling (bugger)
-games
-coloring (i go outside the lines T_T)
-a lot of stuff
-everything
-anything
-medaling
-p.r.-ing
-eating (i eat messily...)
-taking pictures
-grammar
-showering?? (there is a story behind that one...)
-cutting hair
-eyeliner (it controls me!!)
-remembering
-activities
-club stuff
-making lists
-baking
-cooking
-making clothes (poor barbie)
-sewing
-knitting (all the holes... sigh)
-being inventive
-listening
-making jokes
-poety (SOB)
-being nice
-picking movies
-confrontation
-swimming
-badminton
-conversation
-driving (AHH!)
-controlling my temper
-writing stories
-complaining
-convincing
-TYPING (major major major)
-piano (*dies*)
-catching a husband
-fluting (playing flute)
-learning
-throwing away junk
-washing dishes
-doing clothes
-cleaning up
-dusting
-household things (except taking out the trash.. how SAD)
-waking up
-being on time
-grades

well i think thats about it.. no there is some more. anyways i am a loser. =( not fair. i like winning. i like almost all those things but i am good at none of them...

curses. i am using my cousin's computer. poo it is so slow. i want to read. but not really. we got a new keyboard. the delete key works. i am happy. maid in manhatten is so dumb. i just realized i've stopped reading people's blogs. oh well. its ok.. i can't remember the names anyways and i don't have favorites on this computer. ooooooooooooo here's a quote from the book i'm currently reading, the clocks: " 'Ah, but you are a good boy; you are a very good boy indeed! What you have done is exactly right. Exactly. Je vous remercie infiniment.' I felt quite embarrased." awwwww poor hastings! how must he feel!?!?!?

oooooooooooh i finished gravitation. YUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUKI! hahaha ryuuchi is so cute!! hahaha. shiny. oh, glaring dream. sigh. i'm so happy my heart is going to BURST because i am listening to PREDILECTION. plus i just drove. O_o. its so fun. THE POWER. hah jk. ohno we took the ap euro practice test today. i would say my secret but i will be too embarrased. i also came late. that was mom's fault. grrr. ooo i finished my book. wait.. no i didn't. >>;; well. its fairly interesting.. more so now because poirot is now there. and that lamb. ahaha. i found two other agatha christie readers. last year i found out heidary liked agatha christie. i mean is obsessed with her. scarrrrrrrrry. ok i'll say something about yesterday... (i never know whether or not to write "write" or "say" or whatever...) we all went to cheryl's house and me, melody, and yvone became old men. we also made up a family except it had to be changed because we became the old men. first it was the chess playing, then the golf playing. man i suck at both. after a while it wasn't too bad though. we ate dinner and it was yummy. then we watched maid in manhatten. i apologize for my horrible spelling. ok more later. here's a song. garbage, you look so fine.
You look so fine
I want to break your heart
and give you mine
You're taking me over
It's so insane
You've got me tethered and chained
I hear your name
and I'm falling over
I'm not like all the other girls
I can't take it like the other girls
I won't share it like the other girls
that you used to know
You look so fine
Knocked down
Cried out
Been down just to find out
I'm through
Bleeding for you
I'm open wide
I want to take you home
We'll waste some time
You're the only one for me
You look so fine
I'm like the desert tonight
Leave her behind
I f you want to show me
I'm not like all the other girls
I won't take it like the other girls
I won't fake it like the other girls
that you used to know
You're taking me over
Over and over
I'm falling over
Over and over
You're taking me over
(drown in me one more time)
(hide inside me tonight)
(do what you want to do)
(just pretend happy end)
(let me know let it show)
(ending with letting go)
(ending with letting go)
(ending with letting go)
(let's pretend happy end)
(let's pretend happy end)
(let's pretend happy end)
(let's pretend happy end)

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GRAVITATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D after numerous codec downloading failures, it finally works. O_O. WATCHING.

no episode 7!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! *suicide*

Aqua Paradise

You're one-of-a-kind, that's for sure. A unique individual like you will make her mark with a bold, eye-catching color that's not afraid to be noticed. That's why we're pairing you up with Aqua Paradise. Your friends may sometimes question your choices in everything from what you wear to who you date, but they are likely to admire your willingness to experience all that life has to offer. In fact, it wouldn't surprise us if your experimental nature has helped you become ultra-secure in yourself — and that's a great way to be. You've also probably got a creative way of looking at the world that gives you a unique approach to solving problems, at home and at work. And your offbeat opinions and adventurous spirit likely make you a compelling character to pal around with. So keep it up, Aqua, and never give up on whatever paradise you seek!


yay no track practice friday!!!! WHOOT!!!! :D :D :D :D yay gravitation!!!!!!! its sooooooooooooooooo cute!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHH!!!!!! i tried to get three new sns and they all failed. here they are:
-the rage beat (heh i'm listening to it right now *__*)
-glaring dream
-predilection
SIGH i love it. oooooo i also love those baseball players. man, their uniforms. ;) we saw them today at practice.. and then we saw the badminton people running. AHHAHAHAHAHAA. it was hilarious. hahaha. *wipes tear* haha, in the michelle fashion. i don't know why its so funny.. it just is... o i forgot to look for christine. it seems like she's never at practice. i'm so unhappy at school and so happy at home. because home is where GRAVITATION is!!!!!!! SCREAM. ooo i was daydreaming in english class today and i suddenly could hear marth and roy!!! 0__0!!! they're soo cute!!! AHHH!!! i hear their sword/battle scream. *sigh* man link is so cute but the new game is so gay. ¬ ¬;; ah remember that guy from metal gear solid 2? man i love that guy. he's so funny.

oh yeah i got a cell phone. free nights and weekends! whooooooo. more importantly... i have discovered...
GRAVITATION!!!!!!! AHHHHHHH!!!!!! i love it!! so cute!!! pictures!!!!!.i want to squeeze ryuuichi. and all of them! O_O!!

6 300s is so crazy my butt hurt so much, and i was going to cry. i tried to get up and was supremely dizzy. anyways, i was asking about swim. it sounds so interesting. i failed the chem and ap euro test today. damn. bad grades again. SOB. well... at least today was an easy day track-wise. i only did long jump. which is no work... no work at all.. i tried to get the hw from online.. but it didn't work. damnit. oh well. why do i wait so long to do hw? anyways, i went to old navy and bought the matching black flip flops. and some shorts. they might be too small, i dunno. and i bought a bag. its kinda ugly, but... it was only $10. meh.. i wanted to get a new bathing suit but perhaps not there...

AHHHHHH I WANT NEW ROOMATES!!! or can we bring in outsiders? haha jk jk.. anyways, i at least wish we could have lotsa people in our room... like thu and janet... except those two don't seem like they would mix... and grace and connie. DUCKS!!! how cute... sigh....

i love gackt!!

OMG OMG OMG!!! i do NOT look like that!! i just did a search in google for "Daphne Lam" just to see the results... and i got that.. o.O;;;

WOW! click it, click it!!!!!!

i might be sunburnt.. i definitely got darker. >F

heehee i was reading some of my first posts... i'm such a retard. haha. it's so gross, i blabber a lot, and i keep mentioning kaiba. *shudder*

aw i didn't get to write yesterday.. when i was fresh from emotions and reflections. it was the girls' invitational (not international, grace) saturday. man, it was like my worst meet. it started out bad and got worse.. but at the end i guess it was alright. i started out horrible. scratched FOUR TIMES for long jump. sob. four times. man. i didn't even get a mark down. and the other girls, they got like 12 or 13. MAN! i could have beaten them! or at least medaled. it was so depressing. to start out like that. stupid coach whatshisname. he never helps me! well, i guess its not his fault. but still.. he was yelling at me even when i moved back like he said. but coach baker came back. you know, the one who looks like kobe bryant. still, i scratched. its so horrible. i got nothing. i flung my pen away later, the one which i used to mark my starting place. next was the 300 low hurdles. it doesn't feel that great to know that you start out with the slowest time.. i was like 2 or 3 hurdles behind everyone.. partly because of my low mood already. i felt so alone because i wasn't with anyone. i guess my time improved.. but i'm kinda hazy as to what it was in the first place... i was feeling a bit better by the 100 high hurdles because there was a long time in between filled with food and card-playing. grace beat all of us time-wise. bugger. she ought to switch with me and be in varsity. let's see.. her time was... 54.something... mine was 56.something? no, 58.something. that's poor. T__T plus, thu and michelle and christina were there. so that's worse. at least they didn't see me vs. the amazon women... for 100 HH me and angela were together, yay! she got 3rd and I, 4th. that's ok. not as much of an upset and the grace thing. i think she p.r.ed.. yes, 19.something. i got 20.something, not my best, but that's okay. i tried to work better and form and that got me a little faster... i always did like the 100 better than the 300s. sigh... compared to last year this year was a failure. well, at least i'm happy with the 4x4 relay (mile relay). i was so nervous and i thought i would be too slow and i would slow us down. later neil (is that how you spell his name? no i don't think so... oops) showed us the times, and i got better than amnisha and amber! at least i know that our 6th place wasn't my fault.. lauren went first, her time was 6:08, which is very fast (i think so, i don't really know about 400s), then amnisha got 6:14, i went 3rd and ran a 6:12, and amber, the anchor, got 6:14 too. i was so glad angela and jodi stayed. YAY. man, i was so tired at the end, my butt hurt so much, too. hahaha. well, i feel that i have to thank some people for yesterday: grace and melody, thu for her posters, michelle and christina for coming (even if it wasn't for me), jodi's "magic shoes," coach baker, my mommy, and especially angela and jodi for staying. if it wasn't for them i think i would have gone mad. even if it was just an invitational, i dunno... i did so badly... so some people might not care, but i do. it also made me think.. and it shows how much i've fallen. i have no more excuses. i can't say, "oh, i'm tired," or, "oh, colorguard," or "oh, i'm sleepy," or "oh, varsity is hard," or "oh, amazon women," or anything else... it's just i'm not good enough, and if i want to be, i'm going to have to train harder. and also that i have to accept my losses. i mean, next year, there's no turning back. you have to be in varsity. and you can't avoid it.. so i shouldn't try to avoid it now. especially because varsity is harder, it means i should be working harder, right? so i'm going to try to, even if i'm tired or sleepy or have colorguard or whatever... it shouldn't matter. instead of avoiding everything.. i should try to confront it. wow it's almost the end of the year. next year is going to be tough. but rewarding, eh? man i love doing relays. i hope i get to do some more.. even if it's once or twice... damn i ran faster for the 4x4 than i usually do for 300 hurdles.. what does THAT show!??!? what a revelation...

i watched my big fat greek wedding yesterday. it was hilarious.