yay we did more sabre today! whee it is sooo fun. man i forgot my paper for the schedule change thing today. darn. so... we'll just do it tomorrow. we went to thu's house to eat lunch. yay. and we ate grapes and did that capitals song. whooohooo. then we really didn't have much to do so we just did weapon. we did blade tossing today. tripe.. ack! i can almost do a 6 on anyone's rifle but mine, if its lighter. i told jessica and she almost beat me. "use your own rifle! you have to get buff!" something along those lines. haha SCARY! we did a little drill.. man i'm waayyy behind in drill. but we can see where we pick up RIFLE (yay!) and SABRE (YAY!!). how cool. ugh its so annoying... lorenzo gave us different drill for the "weak weapons." grrr. gosh how degrading. anyway... what else? NO MARK. gosh again! mark mark mark we worked so hard to get him back.. and he just goes back to his other job. :/ ooo victoria just called me. WE GET TO SEE MARK TOMORROW!!!!! :) YAY!!! and we don't have to wake up early!!!! YEAAAAAAAAAAH!! practice is 2:30-7. damnit i have to leave at 6. :/ i hope that gives mark enough time to write a whole shitload of fantastic mark-work on sabre, rifle, and FLAG! whoohoo. ooo its OC right now! SEXY SETH! <3!! hmm today was math. i took a little nap because they were doing the math packet i already did on accident. then.. we got fries. mm. my head hurts. oo take this test. i totally failed it. my health is going to fail. i'm going to have a heart attact whilst driving. anyway, here it is:

TAKE OUR ROAD TEST (readers digest)
so, are you a crazed commuter? rate your level of driving stress by considering these five traffic scenarios, using the scale from 1 to 5 (below):

A. a motorist just ahead of you is darting in and out of traffic
B. you're behind an extremely slow vehicle on a mountain road and can't pass
C. another driver shouts at you and makes an obscene gesture
D. you are dead-still in an endless traffic jam
E. a car you're trying to pass speeds up to block you off

1. not at all angry. you're either a saint or a pushover.
2. barely ruffled. why get all worked up?
3. fairly peeved. your patience has limits
4. check the radiator. you're ready to boil over.
5. you want a piece of me, pal?

if your total score is...
15 or lower you're cool in the cockpit. we'd car-pool with you any day.
16 to 18 no angrier than the average commuter. we'll drive to work with you, but we're definitely buckling up.
19 or 20you probably consider the road warrior an instructional film. breathe deeply and slip some norah jones into the cd player.
21 or higher you're a danger to yourself- and the rest of us. put the tire iron down and get help.

hmm. i got 25. i get very impatient whilst driving. GUH all of those "traffic scenarios" are SO ANNOYING!!! UGH!!

yay i was happy on friday.. we did sabre and rifle again! whoohoo. sabre is so satisfying, for some reason. i got to a five again on rifle.. but i still can't do a darn 6. well. at home i even tried with arlene's rifle.. and it went high as slow. darn. well at least i improved my sabre tossing. i can actually catch at the appropriate time, instead of several seconds after. >> yeah irene told me. stop tossing so high. oh. i love colorguard, especially because now i'm a weapon and mark is back. but.. i don't know what to do. i feel like quitting everything. i don't want to be a surgeon anymore. i think. and i've given up on HARVARD. so what is the point of taking ap bio? or ap us? or doing track??? i wish i was good at track so i would have a reason to stay. we were supposed to do something today. go horseback riding or surfing? but no. then grace called and i wanted to go with her and melody.. but mom didn't let me. we cleaner our carpets. we were supposed to go to the eye doctor. but then she dropped us (caroline and i) off at town center because we had nothing to do (why didn't she just let me go to melody's house then?????) and we walked around. ate. jean came. we bought stuff at kohls. when i'm unhappy i feel the need to burn some money. then we walked to leal and played on the playgrounds. that spinning thing makes one very dizzy. then we moved all the furniture back and i read that magazine i bought, empire. :) haha. $10 but whatever. man no classes with jessica! how unfair. i called jennifer but the phone kept disconnecting. so i just gave up. man i finally improved my sat score. but it was by TEN LOUSY points! 1410. haha at first it was 1400 but they scored it wrong, so i went back and i was thinking... it probably won't make a difference.. oh well 10 points is better than nothing. i was so happy because i finally got over 1400 but then when i told my mom.. she was just like, "oh." gosh. i asked her if she thought it was a high score or not. apparently not. why won't mark come back!??! alicia said he and trost "worked out a schedule" on friday. hm. i hope he hurries and teaches us a lot of work so we can work on it. we're so freakin behind. sometimes i want to die. leave everything behind me. i wonder what would happen. i bet no one would notice.