i feel as if my sister has changed so much so quickly... have i also changed? have i changed just as quickly, just as fiercely? is this change or is this mereley growth? who is growing and who is drowning?

i'll come back. i will visit again. i'm sorry that i didn't try harder last break. is it selfish of me to want to see you? how do you say goodbye?

if i killed myself, it would just be a big waste of everything. right now, i dont really see a reason to live. besides that dying wouldn't really be any good. so i guess. i will trudge on in existence. unnoticed.

basically i'm pretty miserable

I HATE BEING FAT IT SICKENS ME SO MUCH!! ARG ARG ARG *STAB STAB*