boredom has overtaken me. i don't remember being bored for a long time. going to play sims house party in a while. its so funny. i wanted melody to play FF7 that time we were at her house but cindy said i wouldn't see sephiroth anyway because she sucked. hahahaah. listening to mark music. hahaha. i'm weird. sometimes i don't think i can stand another year of cg.. especially with connie and jessica gone. they're the nicest ones besides the "newbies"<-- i mean us newbies, us who used to be newbies but are now vets. boo. please i hope everyone stays except the people i don't like. i hope they die! haha jk. i feel like a grandma without teeth. i don't like wearing retainers. my tongue automatically loosens it and then it comes off anyway. useless. anyway, here are some lyrics:

You and me
We used to be together
Every day together always
I really feel
I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know
Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Our memories
They can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry
Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are
You and me
I can see us dying ... are we?
Hush, hush, darling

don't speak - no doubt


12 more days of school. no summer school or library volunteering. hn. i stumbled upon that old story my sister and i wrote together. haha it was so stupid and we never really finished it. hahaha. it was called "bacterium delerium" i think.. because all of the characters had names of bacteria. it sounded so funny! yeah we're losers. haha. oh yeah i was supposed to do ap euro extra credit now. oh well. i'll rather play.

matrix sucked. to me. i'm going to watch finding nemo with angela next weekend. yay. i'm bored-o. i wish i wish...

yay going to watch matrix reloaded! in 5 minutes. i went to the dentist and i took off my braces!! WHOOO! but now my teeth look so big and ugly. and retainers feel so odd!! ahhhhh!! i don't know how to spit with them or anything.. wahahhaha

i love this person! its my sister's friend. read, read:

Chi C kOriTa773: SecretAgentCyn: colorguard is talented
Chi C kOriTa773: SecretAgentCyn: aww
SecretAgentCyn: she was very very good


YAYAYAYYAYYAYA SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GO COLORGUARD!!!!!!!!! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! make her queen, i say.

oh my today was showcase!!!!! ack. overall, i guess the day when by okay. yay we got to wear cool clothes. heehee. everyone looked so cool! i used jessica's black lip gloss thing. yay. and then it was fun because i was being very lazy and i kept asking everyone to do everything for me. heehee. michelle did my makeup and ingrid did my hair (in like 3 minutes, bravo, bravo) and jessica did my nails (one hand) and melody donated a shoelace to me and grace tied it for me. wow i'm lazy. oh gosh waking up at 5 seemed so early.. and sounded waaay early.. but once we got to school it didn't seem that early.. i was less tired than if i had waken up at 7 and gone through all those classes. HA! i missed mr chan!! ahahahahhahaha. "i can't STAND that rat!" haha recognize that? anyway i had to take the test for harris and me and connie were stressed and kept asking aloud for the time, which no one answered. then after doing a run through we had to gooooooo and take the test and i think i failed it, yes i know i did. OW my head suddenly had a stabbing pain. OW!! its like someone has a giant sword and is stabbing it diagonally into my head... top right to bottom left. ow.
man more drama and arguing today.. i guess it worked out ok. some people had to sit out the red flag part because it looked like shit with everyone doing it. yuck. oh yeah, people thought thu was a boy!!! soooooo funny!! ahhahahaha. she had a wig on, thats why. its was so funny. my sister heard them talking about it.
we finished the two shows and me, grace, cindy, melody, and thu went around in grace's van. it was fun, even though my head was hurting by then. we went to her dentist and me and thu discovered a magazine. it was fun. then grace changed her braces and we went to some stores and we went to a really cheap store and bought food (and ketchup) and then we ate pho and were going to pretend to all be vietnamese. and then thu taught us the numbers up to ten, and also some of the foods. but i didn't say it because i was chicken. hahaha. and then we went to mary bragg to pick up grace's lil brother. and at the school thu was getting a little too.. well she started staring at the children. had to snap her out of it.. her eyes were getting bigger and bigger. then we went to melody's house but grace had to leave! and we watched her drive away in her van, aww. then melody pretended she forgot her keys and i fell for it. heh. then we sat around and played chess (well, me and thu) and chinese chess. or whatever its called. i was teaching cindy. but i suck myself, heh. and then i went home. and slept. tried to get rid of headache. showered. and it came back, not fair.
i didn't meet with my spanish group as planned because i didn't have a ride.. oops. oo i get to take off my braces tomorrow!! but then i have to get retainers. boo. and perhaps i'll have a horrible lisp.

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Very High
Schizoid:	Moderate
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	High
Borderline:	Very High
Histrionic:	Very High
Narcissistic:	Very High
Avoidant:	Very High
Dependent:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

that can't be right, can it? o_O;;;

i hate colorguard. i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate. why does everything always have to be an issue there, why does everything seem blown out of proportion, why do we argue about the silliest things, why does at least one person always hate another, why is there so much drama?!?! its probably because its all girls. bleh.

i'm not looking forward to showcase anymore. drat its tomorrow. no school!!~~~ i wish i could go away...

i turned in the slip that said i was going to the band banquet... paid with my account. i was unsure about going, as i didn't know who was. and then i don't think any of the flags are going.. so i wasn't going to go. but then gosh, connie and jessica put so much pressure. peer pressure! but i decided to go because connie said you only get your letter if you go, and that is true, michelle hasn't gotten her letter from last year and i think she was the only one who didn't go last year. now i feel like i will be all alone there. darn i wish everyone in cg was going. why!?!? this year everyone is so poopie. hm i cut my hair today. i went swimming right afterschool because i was dying from the heat, and so my sister and i went to my cousin's house to swim. and then we swam and observed these 6 guys playing marco polo to pass the time. then i played a bit of moonlight on her piano and we ate and my cousin cut my hair. now its a bit longer than shoulder length and has small layers. yay free haircut. oh yeah i did this survey in math today... i was "thinking" again and i just wanted to feed my curiosity. so the question was: "are you content with life right now" or something like that. more yes's than no's.. although this one girl did about 20 no's because she feel that way severely, i guess. and i was going to continue but i forgot about it. anyway the results are inconclusive because i think only about 10 people answered it... i passed it around and other people pass it around oddly.. so it didn't really get around. i'll continue this tomorrow, perhaps. i haven't answered the question myself. i'm not sure...
i want to cut it shorter and also maybe get layers that start higher, or some bangs or something. i'm bored with my hair. its so boring. always the same. and flat, too. haa i was falling asleep whilst she was cutting my hair because i was sleepy. haha.
jessica is blackening my nails for showcase. with ingrid's nail polish which she's bringing tomorrow. i want to ask arlene to do my makeup again for showcase. i looove being lazy n_n
oh yeah we learned the work today. its pretty simple. thank god its done.. now we just gotta clean.
right now, i'm feelin' chipper. :)

"frumpy" and "fetching" are my new words (both describe one's appearance). and my new feeling is dejected. *walks away dejectedly*

remember, berby is always spelled with an e. and it is singular. always. and since there is only one berby, it can never reproduce more "berbies." i say "berbies" because with the "-ies" it is hypothetical. berby. singular. e.

question of the week: who is hugh hefner? heeheehee i know who. ask me, and i shall tell. if you know.. how?! i don't know who would know such irrelevant facts save daphne. (i know i'm daphne, i just wanted to say "..save ___<--a person.. hm does it work with "save myself"? perhaps) yes, this is just a way to avoid hw. ;_; abuse of blogger.

sometimes i just feel like bursting into tears. but that's dangerous.. if you are in a public place, or in a classroom because you're stuck there and look stupid. burst.


p.s. am i just overreactive and overdramatic or do i really have problems? *ponders*

i can't seem to bring myself to do my spanish project.. i think the worst part is because i need to use the internet to research, and the internet MOST DEFINETLY leads to distractions...

i'm showing my mom the final performance for winterguard. *memories*

man i'm hungry. always hungry. i feel like daphne (from fraiser). without the niles. :'( heeheehee it was so funny today. "it took three cranes to lift you, daphne" AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! hilarious.

no! don't want to be 16!!! 9 more days to enjoy and savor being 15. young and springy i say! (you know, because when you get older you lose the spring in your step.. ok nm thats not funny...) i want to watch:
-down with love
-matrix reloaded
-um i forgot..
-catch me if you can


doesn't this sound so quotey? "...gone were the days when you used to love me..." i dunno it just popped into my head.

whoooooooo i have my showcase outfit! i bought a black pleated skirt (which BOTH faimin and arlene also have.. and jessica has a red one) and other clothes, all at forever 21. haha. went with michelle to the mall. drank a smoothie. wait..a slushie thing. oh i forgot what it was. i'm so glad my shopping is over.. that is, if i can find something to wear under it. oops i have biker shorts, as melody kindly reminded me just now. how am i so forgetful!?? oh well. i have everything set for showcase then. yay! i think i also figured out the one-strap/bra problem. :D now to tackle homework.. sigh..

p.s. to michelle: jessica also liked my mechanic shirt. hmph!

my parents were watching gone with the wind last night. ah, the memories. i wanted to watch but i did hw instead. aw i'm such a good girl. haha jk. i want to watch it now... oops what am i doing blogging? heh... back to hw i go..

oops. michelle didn't ditch me. she just has a lazy brother. going shopping in an hour.. man today's practice was such a waste of time. and it was hot. HOT. >>; gaaaaaah i gotta do my spanish project and english essay!! NOOOOOOOO!!!!!! i went out and ate at this chinese place and the song was in my head repeating over and over and i started doing to work in my head. GAH. i had a weird dream. it was another colorguard one. ._. i need to stop with this. oooo we changed the stag jump. now its some long thing that the new people will probably forget. i mean the people who weren't there. AND we still haven't written the flag feature. damnit.

Skinny Puppy
Hardset Head

Driven with (Event width). Two paths given. Pure force downs. Turns the screw
crawling back. In term space - a time to intrude. In term peace - assuring a future.

Silent noise forming sound like silent noise. Silent noise screaming hints.
Retaliation.

Heinous plans in sides remain. Taking downs. Taking aim. Filling curses. Two
conditions back upon itself.

Pass it off as good intentions leaving marks hard to heal. Re-assisted retrogressions
leaving tracks. Path reveals. Sample act reflected clears. Noticed thought while
leaving hears. Nuisance labels paranoia. So stupid how perceived that way.

Silent claws shredding flaws. Hunger's knowing. Silent flaws. Forever laughter.
Silence knows.

A shaman stands retreating. All is over. Ever-more. Smoke the curse. Your creation
back upon yourself.

Pushes distress closer to the edge. One time cracks. Lights the walls. Worry wasted
hearing clouds up above the chatter. Digging deep inside the storms to find the inner
patience erasing shadowed gifted ruin. Haste retracing promised news leaving
statement meant as nothing, starving your words. No excuses. Excuses ...

Silent truth asserts its proof like you abhor. Silent truth asserts its proof. You abhor.
Abhor.

Silent noise. Silent flaws. Silent noise. Silent voice. Silent flaws. Silent truth. Silent
flaws. Silent noise. Silent voice.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true

Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?
Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemondrops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?

michelle ditched me. >F