WARNING: the following content is all about colorguard so don't read it. also it's all over the place and doesn't make any sense.
i love colorguard! heehee. today was so fun. first football game!!! man we performed all crappy... but natalie said it was "not bad" for a first performance.. and she was "proud of us." oh well. it seems we are doomed to have the school think we suck. and thu said they heard someone with a high pitched voice saying how pretty we looked but then after we perform its like... but they have no skill. is that what people always think?!?! aww that's not true, right??? right?!?!? remember michelle, that bandie in our math class last year.. we were complaining how everyone thinks we suck... and he said, but you guys DO suck, right? >< but we don't! right!?? right!??!?! maybe we do suck and then we just are really stuck up and have this idealized image of ourselves... and also mark always tells us how good we are... he must be exaggerating. but it gives us inflated heads. anyway... we performed and i think if i watched a video of it i would throw up. haha jk. but i would be disgusted. especially because I messed up in the BEGINNING in the FRONT on the 50! >>;; arg arg i feel so stupid. i forgot when to start. heh. and then i was watching irene and i though, oh we are together. but then the REST of the colorguard is different from us. and everyone is all different. so horrible. oh well. i guess it wasn't that bad. i take back what i said before... they aren't worse than we were last year. yeah we sucked... but gosh no need to tell us ALL THE TIME so i think alicia is more effective. explaining rather than yelling and looking all pissed off and repeating how we suck suck, that looks horrible, "i guess you guys DON'T remember the work". i remember how it was now... i mean when we were newbies. we did THINK we remembered the work.. but then we make some mistakes, or many mistakes, and don't know how to get back in, and were awkward with the flag, unused to it... and since everyone does it at different times it looks all over the place. but no need to be yelling. you know.. when i first joined colorguard i thought i was just going to be like an extracurricular... but it seems to be TAKING OVER MY LIFE!!!! and it prevents me from going to other places.. or it always goes on at the same time. and then i would rather be at colorguard learning work. it becomes the only thing i can enjoy! well not really. but still.. i love colorguard too much. i'm like michelle... i actually like band camp and practices. even though it takes up time.. i would be bored without it. sometimes i wish i never joined colorguard so i wouldn't be entangled so much in it now.. but it can be so fun at times. also, all those other times i say i hate colorguard.... well i think i'll always like it inside. just that hate is frustration or whatever. so its never true. or if it was, why would i stay? i can't imagine quitting colorguard. and then when i look at the people who quit colorguard, they seem perfectly content and sometimes happy to be rid of it and all the downfalls that come with it... and they never seem to think about it.. while i seem to think about it all the time. its like they've moved on and i never can. and even though mark always sticks me with a crappy uniform (or not crappy, just... the worst one!) i'll wear it.. i mean, i guess its not THAT bad... after a while you get used to it (kind of.. if you don't move and think about something else) because it kind of lodges itself into a dent in your skin. heh. oh yeah.. i must remember to move the button to the right place. and to remove the straps. haha jk. how gay i got the cheap ugly button things and its in the wrong places and i got the cheapest material for the pants that NO ONE ELSE has. oh well. and that armband thats too big. man today we performed BAREFOOT. in the shower i was scrubbing at it but i think its still a little dirty. it was sooooo cold. so so so cold. and if you feel your stomach its really cold! i didn't even notice before. haha i ramble on so much. oh well no one should be reading this so it doesn't matter. oh yeah.. i kinda forgot the point... okay.. we performed. we saw ingrid! haha she seemed erm.. disappointed. haha she's like "its count two, not count three!" and we didn't do rifle work but we still picked up the rifles and she was watching and was like "oo some rifle. okay toss it! toss it good!... *waits*... okay.. rifles did nothing." haha. ok caroline getting pissed.
i love colorguard! heehee. today was so fun. first football game!!! man we performed all crappy... but natalie said it was "not bad" for a first performance.. and she was "proud of us." oh well. it seems we are doomed to have the school think we suck. and thu said they heard someone with a high pitched voice saying how pretty we looked but then after we perform its like... but they have no skill. is that what people always think?!?! aww that's not true, right??? right?!?!? remember michelle, that bandie in our math class last year.. we were complaining how everyone thinks we suck... and he said, but you guys DO suck, right? >< but we don't! right!?? right!??!?! maybe we do suck and then we just are really stuck up and have this idealized image of ourselves... and also mark always tells us how good we are... he must be exaggerating. but it gives us inflated heads. anyway... we performed and i think if i watched a video of it i would throw up. haha jk. but i would be disgusted. especially because I messed up in the BEGINNING in the FRONT on the 50! >>;; arg arg i feel so stupid. i forgot when to start. heh. and then i was watching irene and i though, oh we are together. but then the REST of the colorguard is different from us. and everyone is all different. so horrible. oh well. i guess it wasn't that bad. i take back what i said before... they aren't worse than we were last year. yeah we sucked... but gosh no need to tell us ALL THE TIME so i think alicia is more effective. explaining rather than yelling and looking all pissed off and repeating how we suck suck, that looks horrible, "i guess you guys DON'T remember the work". i remember how it was now... i mean when we were newbies. we did THINK we remembered the work.. but then we make some mistakes, or many mistakes, and don't know how to get back in, and were awkward with the flag, unused to it... and since everyone does it at different times it looks all over the place. but no need to be yelling. you know.. when i first joined colorguard i thought i was just going to be like an extracurricular... but it seems to be TAKING OVER MY LIFE!!!! and it prevents me from going to other places.. or it always goes on at the same time. and then i would rather be at colorguard learning work. it becomes the only thing i can enjoy! well not really. but still.. i love colorguard too much. i'm like michelle... i actually like band camp and practices. even though it takes up time.. i would be bored without it. sometimes i wish i never joined colorguard so i wouldn't be entangled so much in it now.. but it can be so fun at times. also, all those other times i say i hate colorguard.... well i think i'll always like it inside. just that hate is frustration or whatever. so its never true. or if it was, why would i stay? i can't imagine quitting colorguard. and then when i look at the people who quit colorguard, they seem perfectly content and sometimes happy to be rid of it and all the downfalls that come with it... and they never seem to think about it.. while i seem to think about it all the time. its like they've moved on and i never can. and even though mark always sticks me with a crappy uniform (or not crappy, just... the worst one!) i'll wear it.. i mean, i guess its not THAT bad... after a while you get used to it (kind of.. if you don't move and think about something else) because it kind of lodges itself into a dent in your skin. heh. oh yeah.. i must remember to move the button to the right place. and to remove the straps. haha jk. how gay i got the cheap ugly button things and its in the wrong places and i got the cheapest material for the pants that NO ONE ELSE has. oh well. and that armband thats too big. man today we performed BAREFOOT. in the shower i was scrubbing at it but i think its still a little dirty. it was sooooo cold. so so so cold. and if you feel your stomach its really cold! i didn't even notice before. haha i ramble on so much. oh well no one should be reading this so it doesn't matter. oh yeah.. i kinda forgot the point... okay.. we performed. we saw ingrid! haha she seemed erm.. disappointed. haha she's like "its count two, not count three!" and we didn't do rifle work but we still picked up the rifles and she was watching and was like "oo some rifle. okay toss it! toss it good!... *waits*... okay.. rifles did nothing." haha. ok caroline getting pissed.
