i fell asleep twice already and woke up with two red marks on my arm and a large one on my face *__*;; why is this computer so slow? i decided to read one, two, buckle my shoe, another agatha christie book, but it is so boring that i am beginning to regret my decision. i wish i could put pictures of gackt in here, but i can't! *sob* my scrape is healing although it still looks disgusting. i ferget what i was going to write in here, so forget it!

arms are sore... and i am sleepy. i don't usually wake up that early... arg

ah colorguard practice was today. i am tired. i wore the shirt today that i bought yesterday, the one that is the same one as my sisters but a smaller size obviously. i woke up at 8:30 (oops i was going to wake up like half an hour earlier) and tried to stuff everything i needed into my small bag, but i didn't fit, so i dumped out the previous contents of my backpack and emptied out the small bag into the backpask. then the backpack was very empty and it seemed like a waste to carry it, so i tried to put everything back into the bag, failed, and ended up with the backpack. my mom made a sandwich for me for lunch, but it got squished in the backpack. by the time i went out the door it was about 9:05 (hey thats not too late :)) oops that face looks like it has double chins, oh well. anyways, when i reached the car i realized i forgot my flags, so i had to go back for those. then, i went to a nearly empty cerritos. after waiting for people to come, we just started practice with stretches. melody and cindy came late, aha. then we did all these leaps and stuff, which i utterly failed at. i couldn't do any of it at all! X( and people kept having to correct me until they stopped because i think they gave up (its hopeless!!) so yeah. then we had our lunch break. and we walked over to the new/remodeled heritage park. they have a statue of paul revire, i think his name was. so we ate and then wandered around. at first there we no ducks in sight so i figured they killed them all while construcition. the boat/ship they used to have looks so small now.. everything there is for little kids, like the stairs going up to the slides, and the slides themselves. they took away the old slides and put new, smaller ones in their place. the stairs were so narrow! and when we reached the top of the tower the roof was almost directly on top of our heads. oh yes, you know what, denise let me replace her in death. yes! anyways, after we were done wandering around heritage, we sat near the entrance waiting and this weird church guy started talking to us. he insulted us by calling us cheerleaders and saying we used batons. he got mad looks and grass thrown at him. he kept rambling on and on until finally we repeated this thing after him, and whilst he started passing out flyers for his church, we said uhh we have to go! because the band room doors were open for a while now. after that we did flag stuff like carving on right and left side and also tosses. (while we did carves and spins the wind came up and kept blowing the flag into >:( my face )took me a while to get the 1 1/2 one @_@;;; then cheryl and some others left and then we separated into rifles and swing flags. we learned almost the rest of the routine for the first 1/4 of the performance. XP ah well. i kept forgetting to do the part that looks like wings flapping or a bird flapping its wings. oops. i shall practice some time at night so it won't be hot. i have to go online at 8:00 or 8:30 today to send pictures of gackt to people. *stares at sexy gackt* i love that picture where he is sleeping! how cute!!! o^__^o my sis went to the library a while ago. (oh yes, i just remembered we saw whitney poeple at heritage! like sarah and jippy! ahaha. and we also saw xcountry people, neil and uche.. oops dun't know how to spell her name...) anyways, sis went to library to get return old books and get more books because we finished our pile, with the exception of the boring one, the floating admiral. i should get to reading it, but it really IS boring. i want to get my permit, now that i passed drivers ed. i really want to get it before my sister does! that would be soooooooo funny. haha. i would drive her around, how hilarious!! ahhh i got more pictures of gackt ^__^ and i'll take vacks expression: *drools shamelessly*

OMG i went to the mall and i saw mr. mustard there. i was very suprised! 'O' !!! haha does that look like a surprised face? man i wish i could have lots and lots of money... because i am short of it right now... or at least if i could get a job... but no. i want to put pictures of gackt here but i can't!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!! :"(

ah ok i wrote this next part in class because i was so bored. so this is from 7.26.02 9:50 A.M.......
darn i already drained my spinbrush toothbrush batteries -_-'''' how is that possible?!?!?!?!?!? oh yes, i remember now what i was about to write about before but kept forgettting to. it was for that day when i woke up by myself and everything was weird (i actually didn't remember this today/right now, but last night right before i went to sleep) anyways, when i woke up later, it felt like i was... drugged. thats how i felt. thats the word to describe it----- drugged. everything was strange. and the room felt like it was spinning and i was dizzy and lightheaded. its was so weird!!! i mean, i've been dizzy/lightheaded before, but not for no apparent reason! anyways, i got up and was tilting! so when i walked to the bathroom, i kept moving in a non-straight line, and so when i tried to walk through the doorway, i would bump the sides. haha i bet it would look funny. the feeling wore off, but gradually and not completely. ok. just wanted to put that down. i also thought of something right before i went to sleep. i was thinking if a question, and what would be a cool answer. here's one: “do you read?” “i? bah!” haha! isn't that cool?!?!?!? anyways, who is “EUGIOH IS GAY?” that person took my friend test and didn’t even spell yu-gi-oh right! gosh! >:( today was the LAST DAY of summer school. NO MORE SUMMER SCHOOL!!!!!!!!! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! *tears of happiness* and, i got two a’s without ever reading either of the books! yah!!! ^_^ eww my scrape still hasn’t healed yet. its taking forever! and it looks UGLY too. gross. i want to look at more pictures of GACKT!!!!! my favorites so far are numbers 121, 122, and 111. of course, there are billions more but i can’t write them ALL down. i also like those of him with his dog, but i dun’t remember the numbers of them. so cute!!!!! o^__^o ahhhhh GACKT!!! if you want to see them, im me and i will show you, then you can admire beautiful gackt. *sigh*

ok thats it from class. awww i gave up the white dream cd.... =( :’( ugh i hate my brother, he always uses the computer so long and it makes it sooooooo slow!!! ARG!! hate him!!! grrrr..... i hope ants go on his bed!!! >( i watched the royal tenenbaums after school today. it was ok, pretty good to me.

AH! gackt pictures are gone! you have to go to archives to look at them, NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

fresh batteries are so reliable. they don't just stop! yay. ONE MORE DAY LEFT. it felt like today was the last day though. anways, i finished the book, the murder on the links, (i don't get the title...and i think it would sound better as murder on the links, without the the in the title) afterschool. then i started looking through these other books after watching yu-gi-oh ^__^ and i fell dead asleep. then i woke up, and fell back asleep again. i was sprawled on the living room floor, asleep, and i don't think anyone even noticed T_T;; oh well. only one more book left and i catch up to caroline! but she warned me it was boring and didn't even finish it herself. that book ending was very surprising. it twisted like three or four times before the truth was finally revealed. ahh very very crazy. you should read it. oops then maybe i shouldn't have said anything about the ending... ah i don't think anyone will anyways. i love that song, asrun dream. ahhhhh. listening to it right now. ugh the computer is so slow, or at least the internet is slow, because my brother drained it again. T_T i hate him! grrrrrrrrrr. always does that!!! AHHHHH!!!! not fair... and he doesn't even do anything, not really ><;;; one more day, one more day!!!! i can't remember what i was going to write down in here... aww tomorrow i have to give back denise's cd... oh yeah! and i was supposed to give back harry potter game to-day. oops i forgot but i think she did too. i was practicing the bit of the routine that we learned, and it feels really weird doing it by yourself. mmm you know what i ate yesterday when i was hungry? a blueberry waffle with syrup. it was very yummy!!! ^__^ half an hour passed... half more before i can go to that site!! ahhh time passes so slowly when you're waiting for something. one more day.. one more day....

ahhhhhhhh!!! gackt is sooooooooo cute!!!!! in the doumoto kyoudai mickey mouse dancing thing. o^__^o mickey mouse, whooo whooo! something extraordinary happened to my today. i woke up.. BY MYSELF! EARIER!!!!! YAHHHHHH!!!!! scary. i just.. woke up. after a very long (it was LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG!!!!!!) dream, i just popped open my eyes. and then it was all quiet, so i was like ? huh? i didn't know where i was or anything for a second. and then i looked at the clock, and it read: 7:02 i was very shocked! i debated whether or not i should wake up a few minutes earlier but then fell back asleep. ah i can't remember my dreams anymore... and i have a sneaking suspicion that it involves gackt... why can't i remember!?!?!? T__T;;; two more days!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no more homework and only one more test! oh yes. we learned to do stuff on the swing flags today in colorguard. very fun!!! yes, but it took a while and my weak arms hurt X( AH! i have batteries now because i took them from my spin brush. brilliant!!!! finally, working batteries. yay!!! ahh its getting late and i want to eat, so byeeeee!!!!!!

i am back. :) =) from that other post. i said so. and i am. ok. oh yes, i made a new friend test. http://www.iLOvEsEtOkAiBa.friendtest.com take it, please. o i am very sleepy right now... Z_Z.... which face is cuter? this: =) or this: :) or this: +) <------its a cyclops who go his eye puched out and is happy because of the morphine it took for its pain. i like them in the order i put them in. ^__^ i played pikmin. i think thats how you spell it. (oh yes, i like this song too, ran gan -seki-ray-) oops i accidentally let some drown. two, to be exact. i forgot those things can't swim... haha i barely played and i suck very much. i don't know what to write... and i don't like writing too less, so i just write more of nothing. for example, what i'm doing now and what i always did. haha. i want to write to gackt... ahhh i accidentally forgot to save one of his pictures.. NO! :(.... ok yu-gi-oh is over now. i think i shall do my homework and then practice some. this is boring to read, eh? ahaha

ah i love the mizerable live.... *dreamy eyes*

one gackt... TWO gackts.... THREE GACKTS!!!!! ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!! i love those commercials o^__^o ok so there are three more days of school ONLY. can't wait. yesterday i had a very big stummik ache. ow. the pain. it takes a long time to type with one hand... (i'm holding a pizza slice in my other hand, so thats why i'm only using one hand) especially with words using the shift key, because you need to hold down two things at once o__@; augh its sooo hot now.. why did i say i didn't want to go swimming!?!? arg. i really like that song, asrun dream, now. its very good, i think so. ahhhhhh gackt is soooooo cute!!!! ew my scrape has taken a slightly greenish tinge. and it has red skin around it. looks.... nasty ><''' there, lyrics for vanilla ^^ i think... because i might have deleted something or got it wrong... oops. ^__^;;;

kimi wa seijitsu na moralist kirei na yubi de boku o nazoru
boku wa junsui na terrorist kimi no omou ga mama ni kakumei ga okiru

koi ni shibarareta specialist nagai tsume o taterareta boku
ai o tashikametai egoist kimi no oku made tadoritsukitai

kimi no kao ga toozakeru
ah boku wa boku de nakunaru mae ni

aishite mo ii kai? yureru yoru ni
arugamama de ii yo motto fukaku
kuruoshii kurai ni nareta kuchibiru ga tokeau hodo ni
boku wa...kimi no...Vanilla

"...nante kidorisugi" sonna cool na kimi wa plastic
atsui menazashi ni wa ecologist sono moeru kuchizuke ga modokashii

yugandeiku kimi no kao ga
ah boku ga boku de iraremasu you ni

aishite mo ii kai? yureru yoru ni
arugamama de ii yo motto hayaku
kurushii kurai ni nureta kuchibiru ga kotoba nante mou
kimi to boku not Burning love

ah itsuka asa o mukaereba ah yoru wa owaru no darou ka
ah sora ni chiribamerareta ah shiroi hana ni kakomarete yuku

aishite mo ii kai? yureru yoru ni
arugamama de ii yo "I've seen a tail"
kuyashii kurai ni kimi ni hamatteru no ni
A crew sees cring knees,
I wanna need. Not betray!!

aishite mo ii kai? yureru yoru ni
arugamama de ii yo motto kimi o
kuruoshii kurai ni nareta koshi tsuki ga tokeau hodo ni
kimi wa...boku no...bannin da


very sexy.
ahhhhhh i love that song. THREE MORE DAYS. i don't think i can wait that long. arg. its very hot. i want to use those spin flags. very cool. i feel... weird. right now. i think... maybe its the heat. yesterday it was dehydration, i think. at colorguard practice i didn't have water or any liquid for a while... so everything felt like... a dream. it felt like i was in a dream. yup. gah i got the track thing today. its very... thick. full of crappy weird looking black and white pictures. well, some of them are cool-looking, like the ones where people are caught in midair. ahhh i actually have homework today. darn. i feel tired for some reason. why is it so cold in the morning and so hot in the afternoon!!?!? its very extreme, too. grrrr. and the stupid teachers always put the air conditioner on full blast. its almost like burk's freezer thing... her meat locker, haha. i think thats what its called, i dunno. ahhh i should practice colorguard stuff. ahhh i suck X( oh well. ah yu-gi-oh is on! must watch. i'll be back...

4 more days!!!!!

sexy gackt... i'm going to keep that cd forever. no ones stopping me!!!! MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!! officially, i have until this friday to return it... but i have to give back gackt's moon for it. noooooooo!!!! maybe i'll just... forget? haha jk. colorguard practice to-day. i wonder if the people are going. jeffrey borrow this game. freaky and full of dead people, actually mainly dead skeletons coming back alive and attacking you. or at least thats what i saw when i was watching him play. its called eternal darkness: sanity's requiem. and theres a sanity level for whoever character you are currently. so if you're partially insane, or your sanity level dips down a bit, then you start seeing weird things. like this statue of a white head moves around to stare at you as you pass. scary! *shiver* ok this is a reminder for my sister. she wants to remember this, so i will put this down in writitng. this is a very pretty outfit for horseback riding: lets see, um.. white fluffy thick turtleneck sweater, gray wool skirt reaching pass knees, black leather high boots (top part reaches past the skirt hem, so that skirt would go over it), and a heavy red coat. i'm pretty sure she got the coat (or envisioned it) after this one pretty one we saw in my old magazine. if so, it was really pretty and i would like that coat. and it also has a hood. like little red riding hood. except not little. yep. ok i hope nothing happens to this (like i don't delete this whole thing like i did a couple of times already o__@;;;) so i can remember. ok. oh yeah, that other game, um.... resident evil! aha i remembered! anyways, i think that games scary too. i played it, and the first time i did, it was at night and my parents weren't home and i was in the dark, large and empty living room with only my sister and i was VERY SCARY. omg. theres all these freaky zombies and they moan and they keep coming back. and then i ran out of bullets, and went into this closet thing, and right after i found this knife and equipped it, i heard... A ZOMBIE SNEAKING UP ON ME!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! and then it trapped me there, and all i had was that measley knife, and AHHHHHHHHHH!!!! *shudder* that thing was cornering me, so all i could do was jab weakly at it, because it was a defense knife or something, so... i died. that thing is VERY weak. so of course that thing overcame me and it was just... eating... me. UGH!!! very frightening. and bloody. also the game alice is very bloody. shes scary... theres blood on her apron! ugh... haha theres this meter or whatever on my computer and it keeps track of how many times we watching something. guess how many times i watched vanilla? 56!!! i watched mizerable 15 times, papa lapped a pap lopped 7, all the utaban interviews 4 times, the fugi films commercial 18 times, and the E-ma commercial 23 times. ahhh! i love that last commercial. gackt is sooooooooo cute!!!!!! o^__^o awwwwwwww!!! ok my sister wants to use the computer, so gtg!

my scrape has lost its eerie redness. it still looks gross though. X( kind of like a bruise close up. but it looks very skin-less arms length away. oh well. doesn't really hurt at all, except yesterday there were stabbing pains for a while. the new skin is very wrinkly-looking. lemme see, what was today? oh yes. i woke up very late, i set a new record for myself. 2:30, was it? yes. my latest used to be 1:30 methinks. anyways, i didn't get my hair cut and i'm starting to think i never will. but i got a sexy gackt winamp skin!!! ^^!!!! hoo-ray! and i also got another gackt commercial. hes so cute! awwww! well i woke up late and i just finished that book. it had two or three more stories of miss marple, so i was very glad when i hurriedly finished it. ugh i'm supposed to start that book my sister wanted me to read umm forgot the title at the moment, but i started the first (oh its murder on the links) sentence and then i had to put it down. i just didn't feel like reading. it was too much, if you ask me. wow this is very boring, and if anyone reads it, they must be falling asleep now. oh well. perhaps its well because no one reads this. i am sure of it. hey did you know it is physically impossible to lick your elbow? haha. i even tried it. it doesn't reach. haha. try it if you don't believe me. =) aww that face is cute. hum i really like asrum dream, seven, and secret garden. very good. i had a dream again. but this time, i don't remember what it was. oh well. i think i will go now. only 5 more days of school but i still have homework. ok then.