i hate windows xp. the stuff is so freaking ugly. UGLY!!!! snarl. i am mad. i hate my stupid uncle. he's always trying to defregment my computer. leave it alone, damn you! and he's always trying to do all this stuff to it. like deleting all my programs and shit. bastard. i'll shoot him.

oh my i forgot to say happy birthday to denise. oh well its better late than never... HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DENISE! i gave my present to her for christmas.

we performed on friday. (oh yeah i tied for first in long jump. gosh marina's froshsoph/jv girls suck. haha jk... but that jump was pretty crappy...so i was very surprised) man it was horrible. .__.;;; it was a double assembly, so we performed twice. HORRIBLE!! my god.. the first time it skipped like 40 times... every 4 or 5 seconds.. ack it was sooo UGLY. man i was so embarrased.. especially that one part when we turned around and the other flags were starting the part they were supposed to come in. we were like 0_0!!! and then we just turned around and started the slow part. oh gosh. and this one part, it skipped so much leena just looked at me and she was like what do we do?!? and then i was just looking at her because i didn't know what part of the music we were on. ><;; ack. and the ending.... it was pretty funny because natatie ended all different. but i don't know what janet did.. i think she was just standing there. >>;; mmaaaaaaaaan. it sucked. and we looked stupid and we looked like we didn't know what we were doing. arg. and the stupid floor was done all wrong.. and the stupid people were putting their SHOES on top of it. snarl. anyways, i guess the second one was better. it SHOULD have been better. i still messed up.. i did my backwards sotae early. i looked like a tard. anyways, it FELT much better... we could depend on the music. but many people told me there were so many drops from the weapons on the second one. and people who saw both liked the first one better for some reason. omg zhyra dropped her flag. her flag! oh well... man susan is so freaking retarded. god i want to strangle her. man i lost my hairspray!!! :( it felt so good to skip zuluagua. i hate that bastard. everyone who has him wants to kill him. or wants him to die. something along those lines. man everyone thinks we suck now. and we look stupid. and victoria made compos announce that the cd skipped but that would make us look even stupider. arg. and then ms novac quit. i just realized i didn't know how to spell her name. well, i won't mention any details but TROST IS AN ASS!!!! and gosh victoria should learn when to be quiet. :( stupid mr trost.. he should be fired!! or killed!!!

i am surprised to know how many people know i am in colorguard/track. its scary. they keep saying how good i did in the show or asking if i won in the hurdle race. 0__0. and all of them watched the 1st show. boy i am embarrased. well, at least some of 'em actually noticed the music skipping...

oh i gotta shower now... my legs are so sore.. boooooo

i agree, michelle. i love my rifle.

i was VERY happy today at first, and then.... crash and burn.
i got first on both hurdle races, but it was only frosh/soph, and it was against these scared girls who seemed like were doing it for the first time... they were like "OMG we FINISHED!!!" ?__< so yeah.. i got 20.9 for 100 HH and i forgot my time for the 300 one... either 55 or 56 or 66 or something like that... so yeah. but i only got 12'7" for long jump.. damn i had no one to help me... yeah that coach that looked like kobe bryant isn't coaching here anymore.. he got a promotion or something. coach baker, was that his name? oh well. i never have enough time to do a run through thing to see where to start from. not fair. ok gtg do hw.. esp that essay for rogan.... i want a 6, man!

i forgot to say that i bought makeup, including outlast lipstick. i wanted to get the 3-in-1 stick thing, but it was like $7. my eyes, they boggle in disbelief. i tried the lipstick. it is particularly bright and also worth it, i guess, because it really does last.

i love CHICAGO!!!!!!!! :) :) :)
oh yeah, yesterday i missed it so. because janet had it. so i listened to the cd michelle got me! star wars!!! yeah baby.

damn i wrote.. and i accidentally clicked a link and it all went away.. sniff... anyways, what i wrote went something like this..

my former bottomless despair and endless hopelessness from yesterday turned into a sort of feverish jumpiness. ah it's cyclothymic disorder, i tell you! *nervous giggle*

TTTTTRAAAAACK MEET TOMORROW!!! i'm so scared. i dunno. i just am. you guys must come! melody, cindy, angela, grace!!! i need some people to race w/me. i know i'm going to freak out and i'm going to be all ALONE!!!! sob.

before i thought of some poem.. i was about to post it.. but it got too late.. i only remember like a couple lines of it...

and darkness turns into a nervous silver light
and possession slips into death
and the cold metal of the gun...
you can feel it pressed against your head
and then the noise echoes against the empty walls
and the blood leaks down
and the hand slumps down
and the gun clatters down
and the brain buzzes with death
what the fly finds sweet the heart does not...
if you want it to end, there is a way
just whisper it
before it goes away

actually i made up some more right now. but it doesn't fit my mood anymore. don't worry, i'm not suicidal.

oh yeah, what's a heart murmur? oh duh i can just look it up.. and i just did. heart murmur. :/

You're depressed. Really you are. And you
definitely have a reason. You often space out
and stare at things blankly, even if you're
normally hyper and energetic. This is because
nothing really seems important anymore. You
might just be sad right now, or you might be
manic depressive. Don't worry. Have some cocoa
and stuff'll be ok.


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well youre annoying, no doubt bout that, but you
crafty fella, you hide it so that no one else
would think ure annoying. in other words, ure
secretly annoying!


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well youre annoying, no doubt bout that, but you crafty fella, you hide it so that no one else would think ure annoying. in other words, ure secretly annoying!





I'm exceptionally artistic!

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Fair enough. Perhaps they haven't. But now that you know, you must become one with your inner self.
Virtues: You look for immense creativity and individuality in people, including yourself. You're not happy with anything less than brilliant, and you focus on being expressive. You value energy, liveliness, and upbeat personalities, but you're not supportive of moodiness when you yourself can be unreliably moody. Seeking activity, you like the bustle of business but need the secluded atmosphere of a studio or private corner.
Aspirations: You feel the need to express your talents, whether it be through writing, drawing, singing, dancing, composing, performing, or photographing. While you strive to ever improve your work, you want to display it as soon as possible when your impatience kicks in. You want to be a prodigy but you might not have the means right at your fingertips. Trust me, do NOT move to New York to do it. Yeesh!
Quirks: Conformists bother you because of their lack of individuality. You're often late or unreliable. You're showy and refuse to share the spotlight. You only tell little white lies. You worm your way into the hearts of others, but be careful; some people despise the show-offs.
Factors: Surround yourself with activity and you'll always have material to work with. Involve friends and family in your projects so they don't feel like envious outsiders.
Future: Show business or not, you'll settle down happily if you're among those who appreciate your natural talents and desire to perform. Don't stay in one place too long, and don't be too hasty in defining your relationships. Who are you to judge what only time will tell?


You are a freeform writer. Individualistic with a
sense for the different and challenging, Walt
Whitman and his poetry lacking meter and rhyme
is just what the doctor ordered. You're quick
to write something that the rest of the world
doesn't accept as poetry, quick to separate
yourself from the average joe. An author with a
true sense of self, you have confidence in your
abilities and aren't afraid to show it. :) GO
YOU!


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(is it just me or is that guy cute?)

Check it out, man! Dare you even attempt to match my rank in evilness? You're an insane pyromaniac- complete with devoted minions and sexy shadowy armor. Yeah, you're pretty damn evil, but when people think of you, they seem to notice your insanity prior to your mad evil skills.

oh no i woke up too late today and just ate alot whist reading my book, and didn't do any hw! btw, it was crooked house, and i finished it. oops i forgot to give michelle that one book, and forgot to ask caroline if yvone could borrow that other book. it feels like life is moving by way too fast, huh? i like that song, i move on, but it is kinda the opposite of me.. i can't move on. oh yeah, this guy came to look at the house yesterday, but then we decided not to sell it. we're not going to move for a while, because of the hassel of changing addresses and stuff. last night we went to my second cousin's house and it was HUGE. one story, but still it was very huge. the master bathroom was as big as our master bedroom, sheesh. the kids are spoiled rotten. i ate an oreo. they had kingdom hearts. i wanted to play. they had a pool and overall it was freezing in there. there was 40 ppl invited. and it wasn't crowded at all. now to the hw... sigh...