angela told me she found a lot of hurdle stuff on the internet, and as i was looking up stuff i came upon this. read it, its cool.

you know in that book i bought at the library book sale, i was reading it and now i know a lot about the butterfly (from swimming). ah, knowledge. it is as impressive as skill or luck.

my loyalties lie divided... whom do i vote for!?!? its i. vs. k., man.

beware the ides of march.. tomorrow. don't worry, i warned ingrid (aka caesar), even though i'm not soothsayer. (i'm antony :D )

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i am cold. man the sky is so dark. sheree told me there is an 80% chance of rain tomorrow. i want it to flood gahr, but then not rain in glendora. yay we're all riding in michelle's car. i'm going to bring my chicago cd. stupid karin said it sucked. i hope she reads this. haha jk. anyways.. i should have asked mark about the track meet.. i felt bad before about not going.. but now i don't really want to go anymore. i'll be too tired. man i was going to write yesterday and the day before and the day before that. but i didn't. man i hate my procrastination. my torpid ways of dealing with hw. is that right? torpid? man the vocab test was SO easy today. and yesterday everyone was getting me worried because they were all studying. and then i tried to study for math yesterday, but i was sleepy. so then i just read some notes.. and then i went to sleep. oops i started reading ap euro.. but then i didn't read for the last three days. oops. i made a new bookmark. its the reading schedule. i just did that for convienence. and then i figure i could just cut off the part once i finish reading it. haha. aw man i miss the piano music. i told jessica to play piano today because she's very good at it. and she did. yay! connie is good too, even though she says she sucks. man they're so lucky!! to have such talent!! i'm so jealous. i've decided that whomever i marry will have to play piano very well.. and we shall have a very nice piano in a large room, next to a large window with billowing curtains. :) and then i told michelle he would play everyday but she told me that i would go crazy. NO! i LOVE piano music!! well, not all piano music, but like... i dunno. i just love it. and then everyone started at like age 4/5 or something. i was like DANG! WOW ALL YOU GUYS WHO CAN PLAY PIANO ARE THE BEST!!!!! WHOOOOOOOOO!!!! oh man i just love that song from ocean's eleven, Clair de Lune - Claude DeBussy.. one of those. ooo man i am sleepy.

man the flags sure are hard to control. i hate it when i have to make them do somehthing because no one listens to me. its sad. and then it gets really annoying. and i feel like an outsider wheras they're all friends. thats why i'm so grateful to ingrid. on thursday they were being impossible. not all of them, and no individual really did anything too bad, but all together its a little hard to swallow. i mean, only when they're doing work is their mouth shut. the worst offender is like thu. aaaaaaarg its just.. they don't listen to me. not even when i directly address them. maybe its because i have no authority or no leadership prowless. and then someone makes a comment and they all turn around and talk and talk and.. well, not all of them. thanks grace for listening and setting. and stuff. gosh i think ingrid is the only one who can lead us... or maybe the two of us combined..... definitely not some rifle. i was all crabby that day we went to carmenita because it was like all rifle. and then FINALLY we do swing flags.. but then the rifles do it too!! oh gosh they're awful at it. omg really, its just sometimes they suck at it. like they get a sail forever. its like an ongoing sail. and they're all complaining about the flags being heavy and stuff. well we flags are used to it from band camp. and we got good at it.. we know how to do stuff with it.. like some stuff they just do it all crappy and it looks gross. oh well.. outsiders don't seem to notice. arrrg i just get so angry when i see them with both flags all sail-ed up.. and they continue with it.. oh gosh it looks ugly. okay thats enough venting.... its just built up frustration from all week... and i especially hate it because they act all high and mighty. and they're always shouting "yeah, flags, you guys REALLY need to work on that" or "omg you guys look so ugly" and "you guys SUCK at dance, man" ... snarl. well, you guys look like shit doing the swing flag part, which is really the best part and is like the prettiest, most graceful part. unless you have a sail. snarl. HA.

sometimes i just feel like crying. and i want to just cry everything out. its just so hard... life is hard. ok time to eat. you know, this one episode of x, the girl was sitting there, and her mom says "time to eat dinner", or something, and she goes, "i haven't decided if i want to live or not... because if i decide not to, i won't eat. the will to live is shown through the will to eat." interesting. well she said it differently, and that was kind of a summary.

i love cheryl's rifle. it feels so good, even without gloves. i lost my gloves. damnit. man sheree and karin are always seperated from us now.. they go off and do their pole vault thing. i hope sheree's doing hurdles. then she can be stuck with us!! YAY!!!!!!

wow i didn't write for a long time.... its because i haven't had the chance to go on this computer... i've been busy with doing my hw and sleeping/falling asleep. and by the time i am done (since i fall asleep at intervals, it takes a long time to do my hw) my brother was long asleep and i can't go into his room, which is where the only computer with internet is situated. also i've been busy reading. i finished those two other books. crooked house was pretty good. postern of fate was SOOOOOO stupid. when i finished it, i was like uh... that's the ending? -__-; ooo i liked partners in crime. especially because it was short stories. and it had tommy. gross i really hate that name. but it looks alright when you read it. ooo i hate that name, ******. sorry. i typed it out and i couldn't stand it and i kept looking at it and it got uglier and UGLIER. shudder. i had to erase it. to give you a clue, i put the same amount of asteriks as the letters in the name. ok here's another one. it ends in the letter "n." blerg i feel tired. and i hardly did a thing today. i mean for track, because i left early to go to the eye doctor. i picked up my new contacts. i like them. they're not old and scratched like my old and scratched ones. they feel refreshing and also they're new and scratch-less and ALSO with them on i have 20/20 vision. i like that part a lot. because everything looks so sharp. whee. it helps me feel awake. stupid hurdles. i can't get my trail leg straight. DAMN IT!!!! this one time i was getting kinda close except it was on grass and we were going over the short hurdles. >>;; man i was so late today. it was 5:30 when i was about to shower. thank god i took a glance at the clock. i was like oh... then GAH!? 5:30?!?! so i couldn't take my shower.. sucks. i had to put on my cg uniform over my sunblock-y legs. siiiiiick. .__.;;; it felt very not good. and then i had to rush to school and then jessica had to finish my triangles and then i had to do makeup and then people started yelling and rushing. and then i had to keep going back to the band room to fix thu, who came late and un-makeuped and everything. *shakes fish* whoohoo only 5 more essays for ap euro. is that right?? or am i dreaming?!?! man today at open house, the audience was so freaking DEAD. i was about to smile and try to really perform and i see their faces: I__I man i can't make it but they were just plain staring at us. : I <--more like that. except that face looks kinda cute and they were not like that. gosh i wanted to throw a grenade at them just to wake them up. sheesh! i forgot to get something from the eye doctor to "prove" i was there. stupid martinez. i like my triangles. they were pretty. darn i took them out. well i just washed my pillowcase, don't want to get that dirty. oh ew i just remembered. i was showering and i was blind and i saw this dark shape and i leaned in and it MOVED and it was A GIGANTIC MOSQUITO!!!!! and i SCREAMED fairly loudly in surprise. and then when i screamed (and so close to it, too) the disgusting thing jumped and i screamed again, to a lesser extent. and then i looked around wildly for something to kill it with. several ideas ran through my head but i was NOT going to a) kill it with my hand, b) throw water on it because it just might get all frantic and hard to kill and might get on me, c) squash it with the soap, d) let it stay there, or e) stop showering and get out and drip all over the place and get some tissue. so i took this shower cap and killed it with that. then i threw it away. hey, it was old anyways.